77 – Proving

I’ve been playing Path of Exile for a good while now – since, ah… Talisman league, so about four years. I’ve spent a lot of time on it, Steam tells me I’m just shy of 2000 hours, plus some on the game’s own client before I discovered it was on Steam, but in all that …

56 – Giant’s Drink

Like a lot of kids in the 90s, I read Ender’s Game and the rest of the series in junior high school. I remember that nearly everyone I knew had read it, and I remember that we didn’t need to talk about it very much. In retrospect, I can safely conclude that I had more …

54 – Prison Age

There are a lot of tattoos I want to get, when I can afford it. I’d like to be the old lady just covered in tattoos; frankly, I can’t wait to see what nursing homes look like 50 years from now. It’s gonna be tattoos, green hair, and heirloom XBoxes from hell to breakfast. Anyway, …

44 – The Wild One

I have a busy day today – freelancing, man, no weekends – so you’re getting something early instead of me scrambling to do it later. Imagine that, it’s like a Christmas miracle. When I was a kid, I was really into wilderness survival stories; I think I’ve mentioned it. Island of the Blue Dolphins is …

My, How You’ve Grown

I’ve been reading this fantastic book, “The Family That Couldn’t Sleep”, about the history of prion research and fatal familial insomnia.  It’s incredible; I’ve been taking every excuse to babble about it all week.  The author’s approach is so compassionate and yet comprehensive – there are a lot of not-so-great people who nevertheless do important …

Death and Other Distractions: Complex

Disconnected musings on suicidal depression and stumbling toward mental health. The stories in this series involve me being unusually frank and graphic about some fucked-up stuff, and therefore have the following blanket content warnings: Child abuse Self-harm and suicide Violence Drug abuse Mental illness Sexual assault and rape A shit-ton of swears

(the empty set)

You wanna talk about how you feel? No. Okay.  What do you wanna talk about?   She’s got an empty set tattooed on her hand between thumb and forefinger on the left side, because she’s righthanded So when she poured the ink from a Bic into a bottlecap and dipped in a sewing needle tip …

Death and Other Distractions 2: The Bad Touch

The stories in this series involve me being unusually frank and graphic about some fucked-up stuff, and therefore have the following blanket content warnings: Child abuse Self-harm and suicide Violence Drug abuse Mental illness Sexual assault and rape A shit-ton of swears

Death and Other Distractions

I visualize the depths of depression as a well. Maybe your personal hell looks different. For me the important characteristics are: 1) It’s dark 2) It’s physically uncomfortable in myriad small ways 3) I can’t see anything but the Well when I’m in it That last part is critical. It’s what makes possible situations like …