90 – Never Stop

This one has some cool lines in it but I don’t feel like it came together very well. Sometimes the leaps in association I make are a little larger than other people are comfortable with and it results in me looking incoherent. That’s a great excuse for being a blithering idiot, I know; how’s it …

89 – Checkbox

An ode to paperwork. I really do love filling out forms. I know it’s nonsense. I think it’s my bruised perfectionist brain – I get this little dopamine surge every time I fill in a box with the correct information. No debates, no subjectivity, no success that somehow isn’t success – just the box, labeled …

88 – Whisper

The wife said, “Write about quiet,” which made me think of wind and tree sounds, faraway voices, the way those things become words and shapes of their own when quiet makes them indistinct – it blurs the clear lines between words and noises, and allows you to perceive the gestalt of them as a single …

87 – The Hungry Loop

This is inspired by the name of an item in Path of Exile, but it’s otherwise entirely unrelated – just a mental image that I thought was amusing. A nasty little fable in sonnet form. Of course I knew mother didn’t like him.I had a sense that father wasn’t keen;each time I brought him over …

86 – Towers of You

Strictly speaking, this is some rather esoteric erotic poetry from the perspective of a woman named Irian Valcòn, who will come up in Captain’s Log eventually. But it’s informed by a lot of tender, hungry feelings toward actual people. I like when I have an opportunity to lay my hands on a person and look …

85 – Son of the Sun

If you haven’t read Clive Barker’s Galilee, this one is probably a waste of your time. Go read Galilee instead, it’s amazing. I find it beautiful and disorganized and complicated, like a person. It’s one of the most person-like books I’ve ever read, how’s that for a pitch? What distinguishes morning from evening?The beach runs …

84 – Parthenogenesis

One of the things you hear a lot in support communities for the children of narcissists is, “Don’t go to the hardware store for milk.” It refers to the tempting tendency to continue trying to get what you deserved and needed as a child – love, support, approval, guidance – from a person, usually a …

83 – Changeling

I don’t know! Mythologizing, I guess. Got a head full of bad machinery here, and sometimes it spits out intense imagery that doesn’t come with an explanation. It’s like… my brain has a theater in it, with its own tiny troupe of actors who cobble together stories out of the memories and scraps they have …

82 – No Reason

Okay, I’m going to quote from The Fountainhead here, but please don’t get up and leave just yet – I used to be an Objectivist, I’m not anymore, and I’m happy to get into it with you about how poorly most people (including Ayn Rand herself) execute on her philosophy, but none of that is …

81 – Meet Cute

I’m into mythology – I like the gods that fuck and fight and are generally more interesting than the Judeo-Christian sky daddy tends to be – and mostly I like it for how they illustrate human relationships and interaction in the most ridiculously outsized way. It’s just a big soap opera up there for most …